Friday, September 29, 2006

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Lows

- Deadline of Sara Lee made me sick
- working 11 hours a day, Monday thru Friday
- overtime Saturday urghhh
- argued with ma bebe, I almost lost him

Highs

- Sara Lee is over
- went to Tagaytay
- bought new shoes
- had my hair done
- went to Galera with ma bebe, it was a perfect getaway
- I kissed my bebe many times
- hugged my bebe many times
- I slept with my bebe for two nights
- drink with me bebe
- beach bumming with ma bebe
- adventurous trip from Puerto Galera to Batangas Port
- Lunch date wit ma bebe

My Highs and Lows fir the month of September, Lows, forget it…
Highs- looking forward that these will happen again, hopefully this October or probably next month. Being with your love one whether good or bad makes me feel great. The feeling of security is there, that no matter what happen, my bebe will always be there for me especially when we were on our trip going back to Batangas Port. The Boat really wrecks, you can hear it screeching as if it will be damaged any moment during the voyage, good thing am wit ma bebe. Hay.. Thanks you so much bebe.

I love you bebe ko! Mwuahhhh

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

IT'S OVER.....

September 19,2006
Deadliest deadline for Sara Lee, shift is 8-4, and I came in late! I arrived at 8:03! Imagine! That god damn three minutes! Everybody’s busy, bombarding them with call transfers from appointment setters (Thanks Lea, Shane :))

You know the soundtrack of high school musical (we’re all on this together)?


Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, were there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

Here and now its time for celebration
I finally figured it out (yeah yeah)
That all our dreams have no limitations
That's what its all about

Everyone is special in their own way
We make each other strong (each other strong)
Were not the same
Were different in a good way
Together's where we belong

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, were there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

We're all here
and speaking out with one voice
we're going to rock the house (YEAH YEAH!)
the party's on now everybody make some noise
come on scream and shout

We've arrived becuase we stuck together
Champions one and all

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come

We're all in this together
When we reach
We can fly
Know inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see
There’s a chance
That we have
And we take it

Wild cats sing along
Yeah, you really got it goin' on
Wild cats in the house
Everybody say it now
Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Lets get to it
Time to show the world

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come

We're all in this together
When we reach
We can fly
Know inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see
There’s a chance
That we have
And we take it

Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Let's get to it
Come on everyone!

Hahahaha! This song actually helped motivate my agents, singing for them while having a survey, commending them for doing a good job, makes them feel good whenever they nail a survey, wow! It’s a fun night! Pressure is on, yet enjoying it until its finally over… this was the biggest project I worked on so far since I got promoted as a TL… I couldn’t have done this without the help of my colleagues. Thanks Bajoy Sharon and my Sup Jake. Good experience, as long as you’re all working together, nothing is impossible… three heads are better than one as what they say… Thank God! Now, here we go again with another huge project (VISTA) whew! Let’s think about that later aright? I’m looking forward to this Galera getaway this Saturday!!! Till then bloggers!!!!

FUN FUN FUN!!!

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

drudge

Imagine yourself working 6 days a week, 11 hours a day.
Who wouldn’t get tired of it?

Whew! Deadline is fast approaching and yet this project ruined my social life. Submerging oneself into work? I am not a hero, I am not a diva. I get tired, I can feel stress and I want to take a rest. Sleeping four hours everyday is not enough to gain more energy for everyday vim… I can’t even finish the book that I have started reading… poor…

Having a hectic schedule such mine will find no time to indulge him into an out of town trip;but me??? nah.. I will still find a time for me to unwind. Do I have a choice? I have to… I have to function well, or else… urghhh…

Sunday after shift, I went to Tagaytay just to eschew this busy urban living just for a few hours. Not enough to cast all the feelings and thoughts that I’ve lost… Anyhow…


Feels great!!!!!!



Then after, I am ready to combat again... Not enough to say that I felt good after I went there but it really helped. Yes it does…

Come Monday, I feel a bit refreshed, ready to combat with all the challenges I have in life… some murky thoughts were bit enlightened…

Sometimes, I feel like giving up, my threshold of temper is getting low, I feel like getting angry on the little wrong things that they’ve done. I feel like my patience is getting short. And I know it’s not me… aging? Would that be of the reason why? Who knows? Nyahahaha

September 19, 2006, Deadline of Sara Lee. Every single day I’m getting busier, enervating days. I am really looking forward on the 20th of September. Going to work the way I used to. Fresh, with a smile on my face which everybody noticed when it’s suddenly fading away, composed, confident, radiant, confident…

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Saturday, September 09, 2006

Paulo....

DEPRESSION



"I am now the most miserable man living. If what I feel were equally distributed to the whole human family, there would be not one cheerful face on earth. Whether I shall ever be better, I cannot tell. I awfully forebode I shall not. To remain as I am is impossible. I must die or be better it appears to me."
--Abraham Lincoln

It is common for people to speak of how "depressed" they are. However, the occasional sadness everyone feels due to life's disappointments is very different from the serious illness caused by a brain disorder. Depression profoundly impairs the ability to function in everyday situations by affecting moods, thoughts, behaviors, and physical well-being.

People have different set of moods, attitudes, thoughts, and behaviors. Dealing with people varies depending on how they act and react. One has to learn on how to deal with them the right way, if treated them otherwise, it might into a bad feeling called depression.

Depression can lead into something worst than what you expect.

I am depressed…

Lots of thoughts coming through my mind, colliding, don’t know what to prioritize…
Lots of things I would like to do, yet, they are not materializing. Why? Coz i depend on the people I am bounded with. Friends…They are my happiness. I feel like I can’t leave without them. I am attached with those people who I spend the happiest moment of my life. My friends… Real Friends, people I rely to whenever I have problems, always there the support me when trials comes my way. Friends who are willing to break all the barriers just to be with you when you need them the most… friends became my inspiration, friends that you can’t trust. Reel friends are bummers… The hell with them! Backstabbers


I love being alone sometimes, especially when I am under the cradle of nature.. I love the serenity, the wind blowing my worries away, the sea that washes away my tears, and the earth where I burry all the bad memories of the past. I want to escape the noise, busy, fast paced lifestyle of the urban living. I need a break… I am tired… I am withered…
I need to find myself… I need to bring back the real Paulo, The Enthusiastic Paulo, the motivated Paulo, The focused Paulo, the Confident Paulo.. This is not me.. This is not the real Paulo that everybody knew.. he’s different… very different…

Let me hide to my haven for a short while.. and be ready for my new Paulo…

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This was the mums that was given to me...
For just a month.. it was already withered..


Thursday, ‘twas my bebe’s birthday, I didn’t see him for some reasons. Sad, but I can’t do anything about it. It’s my choice; I entered this relationship so I have to accept all the consequences though it’s hard. I love my bebe so much. I am willing to do everything just to keep our relationship. You must be wondering what kind of relationship I have. Well, it’s kind of bit complicated but this usually happens, it’s just not all of us are aware of it but it does happens. And if you found out that kind of relationship we have, you might curse me! Well, do anything what you want to do, say all that you want to say but I don’t a give a damn! I’m happy with it, it’s my choice, I know where I stand so no regrets at all. Friday, our day, we decided to make Friday as our day, breakfast, rest, malling, movie, dinner, and then office our usual stuff. Friday, I went home tired, I haven’t got enough sleep, I went to the office an hour before our shift to prepare all the things that we need for the recognition, then the usual shift, then after our shift, we had our recognition and it lasted for two hours. It was already past ten when I finally got home, teary eyed due to the sun’s brightest light. Went to bed at around ten thirty and yet I can’t sleep; I continued the book that I was reading (MASTER OF THE GAME by SIDNEY SHELDON), flipping the pages… Then finally my eyes are getting heavy. When I was about to start dreaming, my grandma woke me up coz the people arrived to furnish the cabinet that my aunt just bought. My cousin arrived at around one, so I let him man the workers so I could sleep even just and hour before my date. I woke up at around two in the afternoon; I received a message from him to move out date for an hour. He finally arrived. We decided to watch a movie, then dinner after. we’ll this Friday, I don’t know what have he eaten but he accompanied me to my work place, sweet, it was the first time in my entire life to have my boo accompany me from galleria to commonwealth avenue! Whoa! I felt like I was the luckiest man in the world! I know it usually happens but not in my case. Then after, took my bebe’s trip from Commonwealth Avenue all the way to Cavite, I know its quite a bit far, but he insisted to drop me off to my work place. I was so worried for him, I make sure he replies to my SMS before he reached his abode.. Finally, 12MN, I received his message informing me that he finally reached his destination after that two-hour trip. Thank god!


Whoaaaaa!!!!
How time flies.. It’s been like a month since I met this guy, and now, we came back to where we started... As friends, well, maybe we’re good in friends but bad in intimacy.
He finally broke the silence, the silence that I’ve been anticipating. After having his long weekend due to holiday, Monday, he finally decided to stop the crap that we had. We really find hard time seeing each other that often, I try to endeavor every time we have to meet, but I can’t see any effort on his part. I felt like I’ve been taken for granted. We’ll, every time I remember that scenario, when I was supposed to take a picture of this agent being recognized, when everybody starts teasing us, and all I said to shun them up was” well… I’m taken”… it’s only now I realized that… yes I am, I am taken.. TAKEN for granted… sad to say, but i think, I really am taken for granted… Pathetic Paulo…
We’ll. I finally told this guy, if we could just go back to where we started, as friends, and so we agreed. ~sigh~

I really do not know what have I done before… why is this happening to me?
I’ve been being honest every time I enter a relationship but it seems like it does not work… I really can’t figure it out. If only one could tell me why, I would truly appreciate it…

Please tell me why…
I don’t have an idea…

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